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When the heck did I become a spend-a-holic. I mean really? I was always the one that didn't need money, could do with out it, etc, etc...
It made sense in college, when money was obviously going to partying a bit and paying for the all too frequent meal out, but recently, I've just found myself unable to resist the urge to indulge. For example - I held off for ages in buying myself a new palm even though my old m100 was getting crusty, and then when I get a beautiful new one gratis from work, I go out an buy a memory card for it, for almost half of the price of the palm itself.
Now I find myself hurling toward christmas living again from paycheck to paycheck with lots of bus and train tickets to buy as well as christmas gifts... and I'm still supposed to be saving for the wedding.
Maybe once Christmas is past, this will all even out, but we're in the new place now, and rent's a bit more... Urg... I can't wait until i've gotten to my target for saving for the wedding so I don't have to feel guilty when I buy something. I know, i could be a lot worse, and be putting things on credit card. I'm tricking myself into forgetting I have some extra money (using extra tax withdrawl as a sort of delayed "hey, there's a $20 in my pocket). But that only works if you forget about it and don't depend on it. I've got to talk to Mr. Costello about that computer training job soon...
